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Becoming the mask
Wear the mask long enough, and it stops feeling like a choice. At first, it’s a shield, it’s protection from judgment, rejection,...

Barkus
May 25, 20251 min read
Unlearning fear
And fear must be actively unlearned. We carry it like breath, unnoticed but ever-present, shaping every decision, coloring every glance....

Barkus
May 24, 20251 min read
Abuse is also…
Abuse is not always a shout. It can be a smirk in front of a crowd while your soul winces in silence. It is the slow erosion of dignity,...

Barkus
May 24, 20251 min read


Quantum beauty, Quantum Change.
There are moments when the soul fractures not from breaking, but from the pressure of becoming. The self you once knew begins to...

Barkus
May 24, 20251 min read
Fucked up in the head vs. fucked up in the heart.
It’s okay to be fucked up in the head. We all are twisted by grief, bent by shame, wired wrong by childhoods we barely survived. The...

Barkus
May 19, 20251 min read
Living apart from the ghosts of scarcity and so called success.
We have been conditioned to operate from a position of lack, scarcity, fear, competition, greed, obligation, shame, and guilt. We were...

Barkus
May 17, 20251 min read
Remembering the sound of the soul.
The one who stands alone, wrapped in their own quiet, carries a wealth no crowd can counterfeit. Peace is not the absence of others, but...

Barkus
May 15, 20251 min read
Mother Blood Memory
Within the silent labyrinths of the psyche, there is a landscape memory not wholly our own, pulsing through us like the echo of ancient...

Barkus
May 11, 20252 min read
The Messiah
Namaste! Messiah in me sees the Messiah in you. Not the polished, pious version, but the wild fire that walked among the forgotten. I...

Barkus
May 9, 20251 min read
the laughing Jesus
We are told that Jesus wept, and from this we carve entire solemn theologies of grief. But where is the gospel that records his laughte? ...

Barkus
May 8, 20251 min read
Traumatic Deconstruction
The trauma does not vanish. It lingers,rising, and falling like a tide that refuses to recede for good. You do not summon it, yet it...

Barkus
Apr 28, 20251 min read
I am still standing, still rising, still more than they ever imagined.
I’m a good person, just damaged from being good to the wrong people. But that’s not the whole truth. The heart bruises, yes, but it does...

Barkus
Apr 28, 20251 min read
Gathering Murk
The psalms I trusted to still my spirit now dissipate into empty echoes that gnaw at the edges of silence. Strength abandons me, and I...

Barkus
Apr 27, 20251 min read
Looking for Yerushalyim
3, 000 years with no place. Orbiting in the outer realm and reaches. Looking for his presence, looking for his protection, looking for...

Barkus
Apr 25, 20251 min read
Co-creators with God
We are co-creators with God. We create the last moment, this moment, and the moments to come. Each breath carries the residue of...

Barkus
Apr 24, 20251 min read
To Mew or To Meow
Do I mew? Or do I meow? I’d like to think I mew and meow, but this answer does not suffice. The art of mewing is more advanced than to...

Milo the Mischievous Red
Apr 23, 20251 min read


Ode to Satan; Mourn to God
I get asked about it so often; it feels like a dream. No, I don’t want to talk about it anymore. Please stop asking. Some people say it...

Kat
Apr 23, 20251 min read
Impermanence is the only coworker who doesn’t call in sick!
Time, our dearly beloved landlord, charges rent in wrinkles and memory lapses, and doesn’t even offer a security deposit refund. We...

Barkus
Apr 23, 20251 min read
We are hungry ghosts
A variable-ratio positive reinforcement schedule rules the world and rules motivation in every respect. That’s why casinos glitter with...

Barkus
Apr 23, 20251 min read
Growth is humbling, tender, and invisible, but always inspiring.
I’m trying to better myself in all my areas: Body, Mind, Spirit, Finances, and Relationships. Not to become perfect, but to become whole....

Barkus
Apr 18, 20251 min read
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