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Mother Blood Memory
Within the silent labyrinths of the psyche, there is a landscape memory not wholly our own, pulsing through us like the echo of ancient...
Marcus Fidel
4 days ago2 min read
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The Messiah
Namaste—the Messiah in me sees the Messiah in you. Not the polished, pious version, but the wild fire that walked among the forgotten. I...

Barkus
5 days ago1 min read
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the laughing Jesus
We are told that Jesus wept, and from this we carve entire solemn theologies of grief. But where is the gospel that records his...

Barkus
6 days ago1 min read
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Traumatic Deconstruction
The trauma does not vanish. It lingers—rising, falling—like a tide that refuses to recede for good. You do not summon it, yet it comes,...

Barkus
Apr 281 min read
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I am still standing, still rising, still more than they ever imagined.
I’m a good person, just damaged from being good to the wrong people. But that’s not the whole truth. The heart bruises, yes, but it does...

Barkus
Apr 281 min read
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Gathering Murk
The psalms I trusted to still my spirit now dissipate into empty echoes that gnaw at the edges of silence. Strength abandons me, and I...

Barkus
Apr 271 min read
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Looking for Yerushalyim
3, 000 years with no place. Orbiting in the outer realm and reaches. Looking for his presence, looking for his protection, looking for...

Barkus
Apr 251 min read
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Co-creators with God
We are co-creators with God—the last moment, this moment, and the moments to come. Each breath carries the residue of choices, every word...

Barkus
Apr 241 min read
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To Mew or To Meow
Do I mew? Or do I meow? I’d like to think I mew and meow, but this answer does not suffice. The art of mewing is more advanced than to...

Milo the Mischievous Red
Apr 241 min read
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Ode to Satan; Mourn to God
I get asked about it so often; it feels like a dream. No, I don’t want to talk about it anymore. Please stop asking. Some people say it...

Kat
Apr 241 min read
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Impermanence is the only coworker who doesn’t call in sick!
Time, our dearly beloved landlord, charges rent in wrinkles and memory lapses, and doesn’t even offer a security deposit refund. We...

Barkus
Apr 231 min read
2
We are hungry ghosts
A variable-ratio positive reinforcement schedule rules the world and rules motivation in every respect. That’s why casinos glitter with...

Barkus
Apr 231 min read
2
Growth is humbling, tender, and invisible, but always inspiring.
I’m trying to better myself in all my areas: Body, Mind, Spirit, Finances, and Relationships. Not to become perfect, but to become whole....

Barkus
Apr 181 min read
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The paradox of love and cruelty…
We are all capable of great love and great cruelty—sometimes in the same breath. The line between mercy and malice is thinner than we...

Barkus
Apr 182 min read
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Post Truth Injection
There is a psychopathic epidemic dressed in patriotism and profit, a radicalized choir of certainty singing hymns to the new orthodoxy....

Barkus
Apr 131 min read
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The law of Rule
Power is a retinue. It moves with a procession, a tide of faces that shift and dissolve, each one carrying the weight of the last. It...

Barkus
Apr 131 min read
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Authenticity
I no longer craved the glow of constant happiness. I grew tired of performing positivity, of shining when I was crumbling inside. I...

Barkus
Apr 61 min read
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Death without dying
You don't have to die to be dead. I have mental, emotional, and spiritual funerals on a daily basis. Some mornings, I bury hope before my...

Barkus
Apr 51 min read
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Non Duality
We move through a world of opposites—light and dark, joy and sorrow, beginnings and endings—each defining the other, each giving shape to...

Barkus
Mar 301 min read
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Becoming nothing and everything at once
Dedicated to and inspired by Patti Smith. I spin through the chaos of thought, a cyclone of memories twisting into the unseen. I spiral...

Barkus
Mar 301 min read
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